5 years in; still crazy about you.

The stars aligned on July 20, 2012, the night I met you. I don’t usually refer to anything as being designed by fate but I also can’t explain what pulled me back to that party that night, since I had already fled the scene hours earlier. Maybe it was the promise of a quieter crowd since the evening had grown late or the fact that it was Friday night, the party was only a few floors down from my loft and I had a little bit of FOMO. Whatever it was, I’m so glad I returned to the party to meet my friend, Laurie, which ultimately led to us being in your loft with a few of your employees when you returned home from a late movie.

I knew before your arrival that we were in “the boss’s pad” while the boss wasn’t home and I remember a distinct feeling of “But what if we get caught?”, but I was unprepared for the look of irritation on your face when you came home expecting to relax and instead walked into a house full of people. I instantly felt bad…but also very, very intrigued. Red tee that said “Barcelona” across the chest. Intense blue eyes. Hmm. You eventually made your way over to say Hi and I killed you with kindness and all kinds of questions about the fact that we lived in the same building yet had never crossed paths. I heard myself rambling like an idiot yet I couldn’t make it stop and I knew I was a girl in trouble. You kept flashing a smile that, in that moment, I felt was familiar in the sense that I had seen it on someone else before. Looking back, I know that smile felt familiar because my heart knew it was going to call you home.

How carefully we played those first few months, how intensely we fell in love, all the amazing things that have arrived since, like our beautiful baby boy. I love how funny you are, I love your hugs, I love your kind heart and level head, and all the ways you complement the quirks of me. Forever changed because the stars aligned 5 years ago today. Love you to the moon, babe. xo

"It's always the funny boys that make you fall in love."